If you’re reading this, it’s because I have officially launched my blog! Yay! I can’t tell you how many mixed feelings I’ve had about finally going public with everything I’ve been working on these past few months. On the one hand, I’ve been pumped for this new beginning and to connect with people through my writing again. On the other hand, I’ve been feeling this weight in my stomach grow heavier and heavier.
When starting something new, it’s so easy to let fear take over. I’ve thought about people judging me, whether people will “get” or like what I’m writing about, if my mom will be my only subscriber (lol), and whether I’m even qualified to be out here giving people tips and advice. For years I’ve thought about every reason why I shouldn’t start a blog instead of the reasons I should. Luckily, I finally called B.S. on myself and decided that I was going to take steps in this new direction.
You can’t live your life for other people. You can’t not pursue opportunities because you are afraid or nervous about failing. And you can’t let your own self doubts and insecurities stop you from achieving your goals. Yes, there is a part of me that is scared to fail. There’s that same feeling that I get before I host a party where I feel like no one is going to show up and I’m going to be left with untouched appetizers and melted ice. Of course, the door knob always turns and people show up and that charcuterie platter is demolished before you even know it. The only way to absolutely guarantee that you won’t have guests show up for a party is to never host the party in the first place.
Writing is vulnerable (see this post), but I’m thrilled to see where this blog can go, so my optimism about the future outweighs whatever thoughts are trying to bog me down. After so many years of telling myself “no” or “maybe later,” I’ve finally decided on “now” and I’m so glad at long last that I did. It feels great to have the confidence to finally get out of my own way and take a risk on something I feel passionate about. So, without further ado, you all are officially invited to my blog party. And, you know what, if some people don’t want to come to this party, that just means more champagne for me ;).
“Why not go out on a limb? Isn’t that where the fruit is?” – Frank Scully
